Andrew's Real Life of Autism

My Life Before I Found My Voice

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(Andrew chose this picture for this post because this portrays how he saw himself before he found his voice.)

I used to feel so lonely I wanted to die.  I used to sit in my room reading baby books and watching baby shows that I hated but I couldn’t stop myself.  My mom and dad thought it was what I wanted to do but it was the last thing I wanted to do!  It made me so hopeless and crying in my head was what I did.  That you might think I wanted that was my body not my brain.  The saddest part of my life was in my house in Indiana.  I knew I had a voice but no one else did.  It was like living in great times but no one knew I was there.

  I hated school because I knew I was better than what they thought I was!  Getting to school by riding the bus was good but everything else was bad.  They didn’t know my voice was in there so it’s not their fault but it made my life awful.  I really wanted to learn so much more but didn’t get to. 

Getting through those times was hard.  I very much wanted to live in the holy place of heaven.  I passed the time by thinking of holy things like God.  My happiest times were when I thought about pulling my voice up (asked for more clarification), telling people I had a voice. 

My mom was just the motivation I needed.  I remember her taking me to music classes at Miss Casey’s (see more info below) to learn about my body.  The best part of my week was when Miss Casey came because she got me.  It was hard not hearing my voice but I knew she would find me. 

I used to feel so hopeless but now I don’t.  Now I see God’s plan for me!  Good education is so important to my life that people just need to know my brain is hungry for knowledge!  If you have a voice but no one has found it, please please please don’t give up on your life!

“Miss Casey” is Andrew’s previous music therapist from Indiana.  Andrew credits finding his voice to Casey because assumed he was competent.  Casey DePriest is a Certified Neurologic Music Therapist in Evansville, IN.  Please visit her website for more information on the amazing work she is doing with clients just like Andrew! www.optimalrhythms.com

 

 

3 thoughts on “My Life Before I Found My Voice

  1. sheri ferris

    Andrew, I love reading your perspective on things! Keep up the great job, God is going to use your voice in mighty ways.

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